Want to apologise to the forum

Not sure if you guys remember me, was the guy who was frustrated. Liked muscular women but frustrated how few there are. It is extremely frustrating seeing more muscular women online than ever even teen girls who are jacked but none around me. I began to resent that normal,women werent like that. I also cant face dating normal women because id resent that. Id always compare them to jacked women. One guy here told me he had to,lie to his wife when she found out he looked at muscular women. I dont want to do that. I dont see the point of being in a relationship where you dont wantmphysical intimacy with a partner.

Anyway thats not the point of my post. I did try to end my life and failed.. guess all the medical drugs im on werent designed to actually kill anyone, at least not in doses i had avalible. And i regret how i acted. Im not perfect, ive has a lot of arguments online. And yes ive even been somewhat what people would call aggressive or abusive (verbally) in dms not just here but to people who i felt ignored or rejected me. Not proud of it. Im fed up of it. Im trying to do better and lose weight but we will see.

I wanted to apologise to this forum anyway. I was rude to a lot of people some who were just trying to give advice. So i am sorry.

Good to see you back on the right track

Good to see you back on the right track

Well its not really helped , I am still alone, miserable and bitter to be honest so right track might not be the right thing. Idk what im going to do.

radek13 ?

I think this is @Needtovent under a new user name.

You sound wayyy more level-headed. Glad about it. Keep making progress. I know you dismissed the idea (and I know you said you've already tried this route) but I remain a staunch believer in the powerfully positive impact that lifting weights, eating right, going on long walks, reading books, and hanging out with your mates can have on your body, mind, and soul. But regardless, please never give up on life again. It is such a rare, random, weird gift. Some people never get the job they want, others never get to live in the home they want, and still many others never end up with the woman they want. (Yes, some end up with it all, but they're in the extreme minority). It's all part of the puzzle.

Scythian:

I think this is @Needtovent under a new user name.

I'm glad you're alive. I don't wish such a loss of hope on anyone.

post_punk_skunk:

You sound wayyy more level-headed. Glad about it. Keep making progress. I know you dismissed the idea (and I know you said you've already tried this route) but I remain a staunch believer in the powerfully positive impact that lifting weights, eating right, going on long walks, reading books, and hanging out with your mates can have on your body, mind, and soul. But regardless, please never give up on life again. It is such a rare, random, weird gift. Some people never get the job they want, others never get to live in the home they want, and still many others never end up with the woman they want. (Yes, some end up with it all, but they're in the extreme minority). It's all part of the puzzle.

100% agree.

And stop wanking, mate. Don't do that. It's hard but after 3 months you'll see the light.

And stop wanking, mate. Don't do that. It's hard but after 3 months you'll see the light.

I assume that the lights my learned friend is referring to here are flashing blue ones because emergency services have had to attend your home to peel you off of your bedsheets with a fish-slice.

Hey, it's good to hear that you're in a better place mentally. Glad to hear it. Last time you were here, things sounded pretty rough for you.

I'm just a stranger who talks a load of shit on the internet, so take my advice however you want to take it, but my honest advice to you is that getting from a bad place to a good one takes a long time and it's hard work along the way. The most important thing is keeping the faith that things can get better, and being honest with yourself about what you need to change about yourself in order to make that happen (because change doesn't happen if you sit around blaming everyone else for your situation, even if they are to blame in part). Thinking of yourself as a victim is a literal death trap. Wherever you're going, you've got to believe and to get up and get there yourself.

The other vital part is learning what makes you happy that actually exists in your own life. Very few people live that picture-perfect life that you see on Instagram. Even the people on Instagram.

So don't beat yourself up and feel like you're a failure just because you don't have Vladislava Galagan giving you blowjobs on the regs in the backseat of your Lambo (even though I hear she is single now...). Most of the people online flashing that lifestyle are bullshit artists who don't even live it themselves.

Anyway, TLDR, you were a real asshole last time, but I'm happy to hear that you're in a better place now. Sending you my sincere thoughts and prayers that you can get your life moving in a positive direction.

Just remember that even men who are not into this cannot get the perfect girlfriend so focus more about personality

As someone who has been there, let me repeat with others that when you make major positive changes it takes quite a while before you see the results of them. Stay consistent and don't despair, the positive results will come and you can get over loneliness and difficulties, but it may take more time than you might expect.

This is a solid apology, many people would never make a statement like this. It shows great character and dignity. I hope you find your path and can stay on it.