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Not in that way .but seeing fbbs irl is super rare i saw a relatively muscular jogger a while ago and i litteraly saw her for a few seconds but i got an unbearable boner and had to rush home. just imagine what would happen if i was far from home and she was just standing still for a few minutes it would have been torture. or a few years ago i was at some kids birthday and there was a woman who was not even muscular but was wearing skimpy clothes and had great curves. and it was like torture trying not to stare at her. imagine if instead of an above average woman this was lisa cross. i would have probably lost my mind . when i was a teenager i had less self control and even the average woman could drive me nuts. and i did things that would get me in big trouble now .but they showed mercy because i was under 18 and the culture was different .but fbbs can still do this to me
I think the fact that you're able to chronicle your excesses in such a thoughtful and reflective way is evidence that you might be too hard on yourself. I'm a millennial, but I've read the horrifically depressing reporting on Gen Z men and their "goon caves" or whatever they're called. If you're overwhelming your dopamine receptors with adult content guiltlessly and ritually, then you have a serious problem. But it sounds like what you did was wander a bit too far into territory that you ultimately decided you weren't comfortable with, and then recalibrated accordingly. That's not so bad.
As far as the squandered money goes: Yeah, don't do that. Especially if your budget can't easily absorb such a sum. The financial dimension of kink-based subcultures is less of a concern to me than the psychological factors. I personally don't visit OnlyFans, in part for the reasons you eloquently enumerated, among others. At my age, I go out of my way to prioritize a healthy lifestyle, and I just don't like the way adult content affects my brain. My release for these niche interests is instead booking a few one-hour sessions each year. It's more fun than rotting in front of a screen, and it doesn't rewire your brain to spiral you into a helpless addiction. Rather, it's just some harmless kinky fun. That's my experience, anyway.
But obviously, sessions cost money, and the women who offer them tend to almost exclusively tour larger metropolitan areas. So this isn't within everybody's geographical or financial reach. But either way, I'd submit that the key to keeping almost all harmful addictions at bay is universal: prioritizing your mental and physical health. Lift weights, read books, obsess over your hobbies, hang out with friends often, strengthen your familial relationships, and learn new skills. I enjoy a drink or two on the weekends and a muscle worship session once every fiscal quarter or so, and those two (very controlled) vices haven't dared threaten to undermine my life.
I don't intend for any of this to sound preachy. But, like most on this board, I realized I was interested in my "type" pretty early on. And like most here in my age range, this discovery overlapped with an era of digital p*rno proliferation. Many years ago I fell way too deep into the black hole, ruined at least two romantic relationships because of it (one of which truly devastated me), got help, figured out the habits that kept my body and mind right, and have continued to work on staying that course ever since.
None of this is unique to people who like a good buff gal, by the way. Normies can (and often do) allow their vanilla tastes pull them under, too, when indulged in disgusting excess.
To the OP:
Do you approach girls in the gym or cafes (wherever) in real life? You'll get better bang for your buck that way, and you feel good for having the balls to approach someone.
You okay my man? $500 to someone you've never met before is pause for a little concern. If you're lonely (just my opinion - no hate), maybe take up a sport...perhaps one where athletic girls are...?
Anyway, thanks for sharing and take care. 😎💪
Not in that way .but seeing fbbs irl is super rare i saw a relatively muscular jogger a while ago and i litteraly saw her for a few seconds but i got an unbearable boner and had to rush home. just imagine what would happen if i was far from home and she was just standing still for a few minutes it would have been torture. or a few years ago i was at some kids birthday and there was a woman who was not even muscular but was wearing skimpy clothes and had great curves. and it was like torture trying not to stare at her. imagine if instead of an above average woman this was lisa cross. i would have probably lost my mind . when i was a teenager i had less self control and even the average woman could drive me nuts. and i did things that would get me in big trouble now .but they showed mercy because i was under 18 and the culture was different .but fbbs can still do this to me
They are only rare if you don't workout or live in rural America these days. I've joined two gyms in towns of about 10,000-20,000 people in the Southern US (high obesity rates) and both of them have women that train there that compete. Any decent sized town will have a gym where you can find competitors at
They are only rare if you don't workout or live in rural America these days. I've joined two gyms in towns of about 10,000-20,000 people in the Southern US (high obesity rates) and both of them have women that train there that compete. Any decent sized town will have a gym where you can find competitors at
no in Europe its still very rare only a minor improvement in decades .i don't go to the gym often but every time i was there it was just men and a few regular women the only athletic women i see are those who jog or cycle all the time
i'm already lost, but i had put a restrain on myself, i put a 100$ limits on my spending each month on HBC, i'm an ex Drug addict and i'm easily addicted to basically anything so yeah i'm lost but i know and can control it (a bit at least).
no in Europe its still very rare only a minor improvement in decades .i don't go to the gym often but every time i was there it was just men and a few regular women the only athletic women i see are those who jog or cycle all the time
In Europe? Come on buddy. It depends on which part of Europe. France, Spain, Italy, Germany, and England have refueled amounts of muscular women in the major cities
What I am referring to is a loss of control over your behavior related to this fetish or any other fetish/kink you have. This is not meant to be a shameful, more of an educational account to allow others to feel less isolated by these struggles.
I’ll start with a short personal story. For over a decade now I’ve been harbouring my attraction towards muscular women in secret. My partner knows I’m attracted to her athletic figure, but beyond this she doesn’t know that I frequent online content related to muscular women almost daily.
One evening over the holidays I was lonely with my partner being away. After consuming some cannabis earlier in the evening I decided to create an OnlyFans account in search of, what I didn’t understand at the time, was connection. As I was browsing for fit and muscular creators, I was thinking to myself that I may have a problem controlling this behavior if I continue. Executive control is not a strength of mine to begin with, let alone under the influence of drugs. I unwisely continued.
I ended up finding a popular physique model that drifts into the bodybuilder category. I was naive in that I did not understand how the inbox of these creators is analogous to a spiders web. You are the fly, and they will wrap you up nice and cozy so long as you keep bleeding money. That night I spent about $40 for a few 2 minute videos and some pictures. And I went to sleep content.
The floodgates had been opened. Over the next few weeks I spent upwards of $500 on this one creator. My wake up call came when I was reflecting on my behavior and calculating the total amount I’d spent. I knew I’d lost it.
Throughout my engagements the creator was very cordial. I noticed many seemingly calculated attempts from them to balance non-sexual engagement (engineered bonding) with guided and paywalled sexual escalation. Their dominating personality and apparent strength was a bad recipe for feeding my urge for release. However due to the frequency that the creator was online, I began to think that the account was managed. But the rewarding experiences still felt real to me, and this was the hook.
I want to be careful to not romanticize this engagement. While it was a pleasurable experience, if I wanted to have a honest life outside of the screen in front of me I knew it had to stop. The nature of a parasocial relationship is that it can never escalate to something real, and your hope that it could is what keeps you returning. My heart goes out to those dealing with this struggle. As humans we crave social connection, and sexual intimacy is one of the purest forms for this.
There are other foolish things I’ve done in search of novel and/or obsessive ways to find release. But none resulting in financial loss. Just loss of a more precious commodity that is time.
From what I can gather, most people on this site claim to regulate their behaviour well. And then there are some who go as far as to message women on their socials (please think twice before you do this, it’s harassment).
I recognize that I may be in the minority with my struggles. Let my story serve as a cautionary tale. And I’d love to hear from others who may be working with other related problems. Thanks
Thank you.
OP: What you are describing is needing stronger and stronger hooks to get your dopamine fix. Dopamine is released through seeking release and the pleasure associated with completing tasks.
My advice is quit the weed for some time (at least 6 weeks) and re-calibrate your dopamine sensitivity. At first it will feel like depression (dopamine below baseline) but eventually you will regain control over yourself and seek content like that much less frequently.
I have never been compelled to spend any money on this like OP did, but I'm a firm believer that having any kind of fetish such as this one can be harmful to your brain because you start getting very focused on the sexual aspect.
The more you sexualize muscular women, or women in general, the more likely you could engage in anti-social behaviour around them in real life, which is the opposite of what you want. I have to be mindful of that for sure.
To the OP:
Do you approach girls in the gym or cafes (wherever) in real life? You'll get better bang for your buck that way, and you feel good for having the balls to approach someone.
You okay my man? $500 to someone you've never met before is pause for a little concern. If you're lonely (just my opinion - no hate), maybe take up a sport...perhaps one where athletic girls are...?
Anyway, thanks for sharing and take care. 😎💪
I’ve spent wayyy more than $500 on various muscle girl content and cams. I’ve gotten sessions and muscular escorts before. All in, I’ve probably spent at least $20,000 on content, cams, sessions and escorts. I just turned 22 last year and I think I have a problem
I sometimes feel like the fettish is super strong for me, but when i get interested in a real girl i can forget about it for weeks. Which currently happened, only returned to fapping to fettish after failure with real girl. I dont know what being interested in a real girl thats also muscular would do to my will and head. Can only wonder...
What I am referring to is a loss of control over your behavior related to this fetish or any other fetish/kink you have. This is not meant to be a shameful, more of an educational account to allow others to feel less isolated by these struggles.
I’ll start with a short personal story. For over a decade now I’ve been harbouring my attraction towards muscular women in secret. My partner knows I’m attracted to her athletic figure, but beyond this she doesn’t know that I frequent online content related to muscular women almost daily.
One evening over the holidays I was lonely with my partner being away. After consuming some cannabis earlier in the evening I decided to create an OnlyFans account in search of, what I didn’t understand at the time, was connection. As I was browsing for fit and muscular creators, I was thinking to myself that I may have a problem controlling this behavior if I continue. Executive control is not a strength of mine to begin with, let alone under the influence of drugs. I unwisely continued.
I ended up finding a popular physique model that drifts into the bodybuilder category. I was naive in that I did not understand how the inbox of these creators is analogous to a spiders web. You are the fly, and they will wrap you up nice and cozy so long as you keep bleeding money. That night I spent about $40 for a few 2 minute videos and some pictures. And I went to sleep content.
The floodgates had been opened. Over the next few weeks I spent upwards of $500 on this one creator. My wake up call came when I was reflecting on my behavior and calculating the total amount I’d spent. I knew I’d lost it.
Throughout my engagements the creator was very cordial. I noticed many seemingly calculated attempts from them to balance non-sexual engagement (engineered bonding) with guided and paywalled sexual escalation. Their dominating personality and apparent strength was a bad recipe for feeding my urge for release. However due to the frequency that the creator was online, I began to think that the account was managed. But the rewarding experiences still felt real to me, and this was the hook.
I want to be careful to not romanticize this engagement. While it was a pleasurable experience, if I wanted to have a honest life outside of the screen in front of me I knew it had to stop. The nature of a parasocial relationship is that it can never escalate to something real, and your hope that it could is what keeps you returning. My heart goes out to those dealing with this struggle. As humans we crave social connection, and sexual intimacy is one of the purest forms for this.
There are other foolish things I’ve done in search of novel and/or obsessive ways to find release. But none resulting in financial loss. Just loss of a more precious commodity that is time.
From what I can gather, most people on this site claim to regulate their behaviour well. And then there are some who go as far as to message women on their socials (please think twice before you do this, it’s harassment).
I recognize that I may be in the minority with my struggles. Let my story serve as a cautionary tale. And I’d love to hear from others who may be working with other related problems. Thanks